The problem with being a freelance worker is that any and all spare time... time off... time to do whatever you want...
All that time - is also time without a job... time without money... time with stress.
I think that's why I don't write as often anymore. I'm not reading as much either... and to be honest, I'm also not training enough. I'm sponsored now; I need to get my shit together.
The problem is that... any so-called free time, I don't actually feel free. After-all, living certainly isn't free.
I don't feel at liberty to sit and read a book a newspaper a New Yorker write a blog post spend two hours in the pool. I instead feel — hell, know — I need to be figuring it all out doing anything and everything to get to the next point. [You know... that point where you can pay your rent and your credit card bill without calculating exactly which day the math will work in your favor.]
But life needs to go on, economic downturn or not. I need to keep doing the things that define me... or else those gray hairs? They might just take over my head, inside and out.
So, I joined the YMCA. A-swimming I will go, and the monthly fee? It's okay; I'm saving money by using Geico on my car insurance. Triathlon-season, I'm right there with you.
And besides, how many times can you refresh a website, looking for that perfect job? [You know... that job that will actually consider you, never mind the hope that it will also satisfy, fulfill.]
On the upside, I certainly am practicing a hell of a lot.
6 comments:
Great post. You can only do what you can do... and then the rest is all about choice of attitude. Well written.
I understand that situation completely. I've been out of full-time work for nearly 6 months now. Thanks for sharing your thoughts. Hopefully things will pick up for both of us.
Practicing is good!! Keep doing what you're doing, and keep working at making the career you want. Make friends with composers and apply for grants (tons of money out there)...come up with a great new project to keep you busy...don't wait, but do!! (As a freelance flutist, I know exactly how you feel!!)
I have been in your seat before with regards to having extra spare time... The only way I have figured out how to fix the problem is to make myself busy all the time... which leads to another problem! Not having enough time to do other things that I would like to participate in. Didn't know you were sponsored, that is awsome! Who with? Have a great weekend!
Thanks, all!
Andy - Trakkers gps is sponsoring a triathlon team... they're awesome! you should apply for the team next year... :-)
PS - link to trakkers is on the right...
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