So I met this guy at a party.
And I talked to him for a long time. And I really liked talking to him, and it was obvious he liked talking to me too. He even made sure I was the right age.
And then something happened and he turned off. Maybe it was because he smoked up, or maybe it was because I didn't, or maybe his sister said something to him about me being too dorky for him, or maybe I said something wrong...
But there was definitely something. And I hate that 2 days later I'm still thinking about it. Who cares, right? I mean, I don't particularly want to date someone who smokes a lot (and he did because he had his own stuff), so it really doesn't matter at all.
But the thing is, I just kind of liked him. I don't know why, but I did. I even found him very attractive, and to be honest, I'm pretty freaking picky.
And I wonder what went wrong. It's fine; obviously, if he didn't want to ask for my number, then I don't want him to have it. But still...I just wonder...and I wonder when I won't have to wonder about this crap anymore.
And I don't want the sympathy or the 'it'll happen when you're happy by yourself' or the 'when you stop looking for it, it'll happen'...all that stuff is fine and good and to a certain extent I believe it.
But then on the other hand? I'm just sick of it all and I really, completely don't want to deal with more meetings-of-the-opposite-sex.
Blech. That's all I've got to say about it. Blech. I'd be ready to turn in the towel, but the truth is that I'm not ready...I've still got more fight in me, which is good, I suppose...
But goodness. Blech.
9 comments:
If I may - You're a triathlete, he's smoking up. His sister didn't even have enough respect for you at your first meeting to show basic courtesy to you. And this was at the first meeting.
Don't waste your 'blech' on this one.
Just remember ... you are not just a triathlete, but a HOT triathlete ;) ... I think he was smoking a little crack in that pipe.
concur with "cheaper than therapy." curly su, some lucky guy will find you. i promise. don't settle for anyone less than who you'd want your daughter to marry. you are special. believe it.
PFFT! You are a catch. Don't stress it Curly.
I'm sick of it for you. I want so much for my friends like you to be happy and find "The One." I sometimes wish I could just fix you all up with Mr. Wonderful . . .
Hey, now there's a thought. Have you ever considered arranged marriage. :)
OK, I'm just another guy chiming in here but I have to agree with all the above comments. Put this guy/encounter out your mind, he was obviously out of his mind. I'ts OK to think about what happend or second guess yourself...for 3 minutes only. Now stop it.
You're a fantastic woman in many many ways. Really. Believe it.
yuck - back in the day, well, not 100%, but usually almost definately 100% the smoking thing sent the girl packing - at least after a date or two...making out with a smoker brings on the gag reflex. Did I say "yuck" already?
well i'll tell you this much. my last ex was.. not *quite* a pot-head, but sorta. he was BEFORE my turn towards marathon/triathlon, so i dealt with it, but...
he SUCKED to be around when he was stoned.
and it had nothing to do with me. it never did. he was just annoying and different to be around.
.... actually ended up ditching me for someone else while he was doing study abroad, then after it was over, and after he'd told me he wouldn't move to denver with me, etc... he moved to chicago to be with the study abroad girl. who also got stoned regularly.
anyway.. to this day, it bugs me. why wouldn't he move for me, but would for her?!
so the "its still bugging me thing"... NORMAL. should you be bothered by it?! no. but the "get over it"'s don't help either. that much i know. and the knowing he's not right for you, but still being attracted anyway!?
that i DEF'LY know.
so you're not alone.
and you'll have the last laugh. i know i did...
(the ex knocked up the study abroad girl, so now they're 20-somethings, with a kid, totally poor, not getting married and they have to live with that... forever!
so HA!
and yes i'm going to hell for that. well aware!)
I do not understand the stupidity of males around you. But I also suppose if you put $50,000 on the table they would question why not more.
From my own experience of having terrible experience with women, I met my wife when I was reading a book outside her store and she leaned out asking if I would fill up her water bottle next door.
Out of nowhere.
Thats all I got.
Post a Comment