I went back to Cleveland for the weekend, and had a great time. I got to go to Liz's birthday corn-maze celebration, and I just got to spend time with a bunch of people that I really miss. I have a million pictures (or 61), but my computer is freaking out, so they'll have to wait.
I'm a little worried about the poor computer, actually. I'm getting this scary blue-screen error-message. I'm bringing it into Best Buy today (where I have a warranty), but I know all too well that said warranty does not cover software or viruses. I'm worried about all this money-wise, but more I'm scared of losing everything. I'm an idiot and have been putting off backing up and now if I lose all my pictures and writings, I'll just cry. A lot.
And I've had enough crying for a while.
So, cross your fingers for me and throw some salt over your shoulder while you're at it...all computer demons be gone.
I ran a couple of short 4 mile runs in the Parkway, which is just gorgeous this time of year. The canopying trees took my breath away. Then, I did my long run in Solon with Cleveland's famous Southeast Running Club. I ran 15.5 miles, with hills. I felt great through all of it. I was ready to be done, but it wasn't overly painful. Yeah, I should have done more. I need to break through this 15m barrier. I have 5 weeks until Philadelphia. I'm thinking 18, 20, then either 18 or 20, and then 12-15 and then the marathon. Ack. Maybe I'll try to get to New York one of these weekends and do the Central Park loop a few times. I'm so unbelievably bored of the runs around here; I don't think I can stomach another out and back long run...
So, the weekend in Cleveland was great. It was hard at times, and really...I just want to move back. I like everything here, and I'm enjoying school...but the overwhelming sense of missing people and my life in Cleveland by far overcomes all the good here. I can't help but think I'd be happier just figuring out my musical niche in a place where I feel comfortable, with people I love.
But, for now I'm here...and there isn't really anything wrong with any of it. Maybe I'll end up moving back sooner rather than later, but maybe I won't. I'm not all that great at the 'wait and see' game, but I am learning the rules slowly.
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Random comment from a periodic lurker: The Running Center (www.therunningcenter.com) is a great group to run with if you're going to make the trip to NYC. They have long runs geared mostly to the NYC Marathon but you might get them to work with your schedule ... and no, I don't work for them or anything. Just really like them!
After high school, I left for college (several states away). Three semesters, one broken jaw, and enough money to break the bank later, I headed back "home."
I spent another nine months working and then joined the Navy. Ten years later, I went back "home" to finish college. My family (wife and kids) lives in the same general vicinity as where I grew up, but we've moved around so much and the rest of my family is so scattered that anywhere could be home.
Even if you eventually move closer to where you grew up, this time away, though painful, will be beneficial. You'll gain so much be striking out on your own and experiencing new things. Chin up. This is just another long journey, like Ironman.
Sorry I missed ya at home! :( Glad to hear you had fun. It is very hard to leave comfort, but sometimes the new comfort zone brings even more happiness than the old. Hoping that you feel good and settled soon.
You seem to me like the type of person who will be out of sorts until you find those few people to make a real connection with, but also one that might be slow to reach out and make those connections. Your home is wherever your people are. Know that when you find them (and you will) home will again be the same place as your mailing address.
Hang in there.
i am a TERRIBLE backer upper.
but, i did buy a spare drive, it cost about $100, at a Best Buy even, and it has all my dear photos on it.
that was dear, not deer.
i have no deer photos. they are just big and smelly and run in front of me when i'm biking.
that is all.
oh, and home is where the heart is.
definitely, all.
hope your computer's ok.
let me know if you come to central park. i'll try and keep up with you for a lap or two...
Glad to hear you had a good time back in Cleveland. I also am a member of Southeast Running Club and look forward to running with them. Take Care.
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