i think fall is ending.
it's been an awesome season, but too short as always. winter is here. it was COLD this morning (i swam anyway!), and then on the way back ice was definitely hitting my windshield. nothing sticking yet, no flurries even...so nothing counting as snow yet...but it's coming. i can feel it.
i'm going to ny for thanksgiving. any of you ny runners have the scoop for the turkey trot there? am i too late?
i need to go practice. i think this counts as procrastinating. i've fallen off of my practice plan, and i'm kind of annoyed with myself. so much so that it's hard to get started again. but...back on that proverbial horse, right? there's no other way...
yale is now free for music students, due to an (annonymous!) 100 million dollar donation. thinking about applying for a doctorate, but hesitating because i don't think i really want a doctorate. i just want to be in the midst of a musical environment again...how to do that without going back to school? i like my freedom, i like being able to make my own schedule on a daily basis...i just have to figure out the quirks, and i'm not sure how... yet.
and then again, maybe i DO want a doctorate. how simple, to just be able to comfortably apply for college teaching jobs, and never have to suffer through the audition process again. there is absolutely nothing wrong with a teacher's life...why am being so stubborn?
but...i just don't know if that's what i want. i simply want to play the flute in an orchestra. why is that so absurdly hard?
4 comments:
funny i talked to you about yale this morn and i hadn't even read this yet! know what ya mean... nice to have freedom and not be in school but i feel like i need to be performing and playing more next year or my wee cellista ta might disappear altogether...
i bet it was a woman who donated:)!
i'm kidding, i've no clue. i doctorate is always a good idea.
I was just thinking the other night that it's a third of the way through November and we haven't turned our heat on yet! I think tonight might be the night. ugh to stinky dust in the heating vents smell.
I don't do anything musical, but I'm tinkering with the idea of a doctorate too... just can't decide if I want to be doing all that research, or EXACTLY which field it should be in. I wish someone would tell me EXACTLY what I'm supposed to be doing with my life!
mar--yep, glad that someone understands and doesn't just think i'm feeling sorry for myself, needlessly!
rhein--i hope it was a woman...funny how that possibility didn't even occur to me beforehand.
mouse--EXACTLY! me too!
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