Wednesday, September 28, 2005

wish i knew what i was doing

So, I've been trying to make my website entirely functional, and I feel like (aside from making the sound byte of me playing), it's pretty much there. Thing is, I can't get Google to search it. I've been reading about meta tags and the like, and now Yahoo finds it, but considering the over-popularity of Google, that's not going to help much. Any advice out there??

I've been having over-sensitivity issues lately...getting upset when people say the littlest thing. I guess I just feel like I don't really make rude comments to others, so why are they making them to me? So then I get on this whole superiority kick and get all upset about the state of the world and it's all really dumb. I'm not perfect either and I know I hurt people's feelings without meaning to, but sometimes I just feel like certain people just spit out whatever they want without thinking. There needs to be some kind of filter between brain and mouth, I truly believe. No one wants to hear everything you're thinking. It's boring and honestly, not really appropriate. I think what I need to work on is just being able to let stupid comments from stupid people roll off me a bit more instead of getting upset or mad about it, because it really is wasted energy. Easier said than done though, as most things are.

Today I'm going to practice a whole hell of a lot. I'm getting back from work and getting started. I don't have anything scheduled for the rest of the day, which can make it harder to organize myself time-wise, but I'm just going to have to buckle down...no excuses about not having enough time today!

2 comments:

E-Speed said...

I hope I didn't say anything stupid to upset you. I do have a tendency to just say whatever is on my mind regardless of its nature. I would never try to hurt your feelings on purpose though.

I have played that role in friendships and it sucks so I would never want one of my friends to be "that girl."

I don't think anyone thinks unhighly of you about anything just so you know. What you are doing with your training and flute playing is amazing.

I have been running for 14 years and the marathon was still an outrageous idea to me until I did it. So for you to be doing it and to be breaking 4 hours after 1 year of training is very impressive.

And the fact that you are going to be a real musician is just outstanding. So cool. Way to take hold of your own destiny!!!

Cy said...

Ditto what Elizabeth said.

Go get 'em!